I believed...

I believed in stars till i knew they break,
i believed in angels till i realized they are fake
then why is it that i still look up to them.

I believed in love till i knew heart breaks
i believed in life till i realized it aches
then why is it i look for love in life?

I believed in rain till i knew it had an end
i believed in humanity till i realized they pretend
then why is it that i wait and help with no return

i believed in flowers till i knew they go dry
i believed in frnds till i knew they will soon say good bye

then y do i strore the flowers frm my frnds?

is it because i'm living on hope
and find others doing that too
is it because i rely on them
because they help me when im blue

or is it that i'm living like a sun
provinding heat, shine and warmth
making others smile
even if inside i burn
trying to ignore the eyes that deceive
and try to forget the ones who leave

this is wat life means i think
even if sadness, despair n heart break it will bring.

Silent Lover

Sometimes my silence speaks to me
and i listen in vain

It says:
crying all alone
tears freeze before reaching the ground
and some of these tears
never stream the cheek
my heart occupied with pain, sorrow and fear
and life in a nutshell 'Alone'
I am running but no one is behind me
I want to disguise my feelings..but my eyes say it all
I wnat to cry loud..but a word won't comeout
I want to scream but only inside I shout
today again the superfluous stars replaced his absense
today again my friends hugged and dried my tears
but I still..
and yes I still
miss that hand which could have prevented
my first tear from reaching the ground

And today again
my silence speaks volumes to me
and I silently listen till it asks me its final question
why did you make me the silent lover...why me?


Begging for replies

Sitting on the corniche
Counting the stars
He asks himself...
Why does the world lose a meaning when you near me?
Why do I picture you in every face and shadow?
Why do you keep quiet when all I can talk about is you?
You don't know nor do I
Sitting on the other end
Indulged in her thoughts she asks...
Why do you come to me when you know you have to leave me?
Why do I have to see you go when I have to go?
Why do I fear your loss when you silently fear more?
You don't know nor do I

Sighing he desperately asks her..
Why do I sigh for you when I don't know if you ever do for me?
Why do you care for me when you don't even know if you love me?
Why can't you just...
Why don't you just...
Can't you just say that you love me the way I do?
Can't you just say that you care for me too?

He asks her questions
But she can't answer
She asks him questions
But she fears the answers
Swearing upon the last star she sees in the sky
She just smiles when he asks his final question
Which she can never answer
Nor can he
"How did he ever fall in love with her..how?"


Different

Sometimes twigs seem to be
more beautiful
then the flowers.

Sometimes the earth feels
more magical
then the stars.

Sometimes a corpse seems
more untouched
then the clouds.

Sometimes reality bites
more then what's
In the shrouds.

Does believing in them make me lack
the touch of nature?
Does it mean the beauty through eyes
I don't nurture?

Is it wrong to find beauty in the slums and mud?
Is it wrong not to love the flower more then its bud?
These beauties I care to see in a different way
The games of life for me, differently I play
For..
Sometimes silence speaks volumes
Which you don't hear
And you try to find knowledge
in the words visually clear

Just Another Day

Just another day and another night for you
The day dies away
And I see him going far.

My heart is crying
But not a word would come out
My heart is screaming
But only inside do I shout
And the depth of my screams
Similar to that of a widows
As she screams the name of her husband
On his newly buried grave.

I'm alone, weak and so insecure
Like a bedouin whose tribe leaves him
And the wind blows sand on his face, laughing
As he quietly cries.

I'm like the star in the day
Waiting for the night
to come out
so that even it may glitter and shine

Till then it will wait and so will I
As its just another day and another night for you
The day dies away and now he's out of sight


Evening Realms (dedicated to my late uncle)

In the deep realms of the evening,
When the birds go to sleep.
The night takes over
And stars shine on me.

Their twinkle covers my vision,
As tears fill my eyes.
But the smile won't part my lip,
As I wish my friend goodbye.

Soon he'll be in heaven,
As the time takes him far from me.
The stream of his life dries up,
Leaving a scarce land in my heart.

So my stars stop twinkling,
Your glittering is torturing me
And moon just go away,
For my heart is in agony.

For tonight is a difficult night for me,
As the nature takes my test.
Slowly he reaches the curve of his life.
My hands empty he now rests.

The night goes by,
As the birds wake from sleep
And now he hides away,
In the evening's realms which are deep.

Unreachable and undisturbed.
And all I do is pray.


Martyr

In the deep shades of dawn
When the day silently wakes in peace
Like the still waters of the ocean
As tides silently sweep by

He used to sit there
Dream and hopes he built
His wish for martyrdom
More then life itself

He left his world, his family, his life
In search of inner peace he gave it all up
For he knew the angels awaited him
In the shroud of dark smoke

The day arrived when he got what he yearned
His prayers, dreams his life was answered
He heard the summon and leapt for his goal
His sword, like his eyes, powerful ready to face it all

This morning was the last he saw
As the enemies bomb closed his eyes
He died as a martyr in the shroud of smoke
In the land he fought for

Peace he wanted for his people
At last he found his life's cure..the heaven
As the angels called him
He smiled and went away in their arms

As the time of dusk arrived
The slow tides died again
And now he slept away with the day
In peace.



Killer..
teh real story of a Pakistani serial killer who killed 100 children by drwning them in acid!..Astaghfar

High very high
Touching the limits of the sky
Swearing yes swearing
His life non-existing
Screams of pain deep within
And face occupied with the cruelty of a grin
With audacity to kill millions with one go
No affection he got no affection he'll show
His heart so dark no tears will work
What can you do..smiply curse?
Go on you can but he won't leave you
For today's record you're one of the few
Come to him dear he's getting late
It will take long at this pace
He hopes your mama didn't have many dreams
Each and every one of them will now be just screams
Believing his pain is the most drastic
He takes your innocent young body and pushes it in the acid
Laughs cruel as he watches it deteriorate
Reminding the world of once his state
You cry he won't listen
He's sticking to his decision
You plead he'll laugh out loud
Allowing you to go ahead and shout
This is how he himself inside cries
And today again he dies
And this is how he takes his revenge
Satisfies his pain of negligence
His mom was beaten and now he takes lives
No guns he uses not even knives
Simply puts you in acid bucket
Smiles when he sees your eyes popping from the socket
Why was his mom made to cry
He suffered the blame of a lie?
Now everybody will suffer and fear him
A hundred lives he's taken, a hundred houses in total gone dim
Putting your remains in the trash can..he smiles
Dumping on the already existing piles
His heart frozen like the morgue
He looks up and curses the lord


What its like to Miss somebody..

You know what it's like to miss somebody?
It's like you're sitting in a open field and its raining hard on you. In the rain, the tears from your eyes mix with the drops of the rain and you let it happen because you don't want any other soul to know the depth of your sorrow.In the beggining you want the pain to stop as it becomes more and more unbearable but then slowly and slowly you start falling in love with the rain.
The drops represent the memories of the person and a time comes when you don't want the rain to stop. For the pain you behold becomes dear to you and the sorrow becomes precious to you but still in the heart some where you belive that the rain will stop the sun will come out. You will be happy again but you convince yourself that the person will come back, you will smile again but it's a long way to go and till then you will let it lie in your subconsious and taste the bitterness of being apart.
Some where you feel insecure but this whole experience has taught you a lot especially self control and most of all 'acting',which you will forever treasure. The sun seems far off and the clouds dark and powerful but you beleive the rainbow is on a stand by. Did you think about someone when reading this..he/she is the person who means alot to you.

Life, love, God n me!

They say life's a game keep on playing
They say it's a journey enjoy as you have it
They say it brings tests, take it
But I've learned its a package
Of family, friends, hopes & dreams
All of these come and go
Like the sand, flowing from your hand
Unstoppable, until you are left with a few crumbs
Your deeds, which you take with you

They say love is beautiful
They say its difficult, brings pain
They also say its magical and supernatural
But I've learned that there is always one person,
Whom you will love
and is the same person you will never be with.

They say God is your best friend
They say He loves you, takes tests
Just to see how much you love Him
But I've learned that God is everywhere
And knows even my deepest darkest secret
Loves me and cares for me.

And when they say "Sleep in peace, God is awake"

I do so!

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